CC Madhya 13.145
TEXT 145
- nā gaṇi āpana-duḥkha, dekhi’ vrajeśvarī-mukha,
- vraja-janera hṛdaya vidare
- kibā māra’ vraja-vāsī, kibā jīyāo vraje āsi’,
- kena jīyāo duḥkha sahāibāre?
SYNONYMS
nā gaṇi — I do not care; āpana-duḥkha — My personal unhappiness; dekhi’ — seeing; vrajeśvarī-mukha — the face of mother Yaśodā; vraja-janera — of all the inhabitants of Vṛndāvana; hṛdaya vidare — the hearts break; kibā — whether; māra’ vraja-vāsī — You want to kill the inhabitants of Vṛndāvana; kibā — or; jīyāo — You want to keep their lives; vraje āsi’ — coming in Vṛndāvana; kena — why; jīyāo — You let them live; duḥkha sahāibāre — just to cause to suffer unhappiness.
TRANSLATION
“I do not care for My personal unhappiness, but when I see the morose face of mother Yaśodā and the hearts of all the inhabitants of Vṛndāvana breaking because of You, I wonder whether You want to kill them all. Or do You want to enliven them by coming there? Why are You simply keeping them alive in a state of suffering?