CC Madhya 2.20
Śrī Caitanya-caritāmṛta - Madhya-līlā - Chapter 2: The Ecstatic Manifestations of Lord Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu
TEXT 20
- sakhi he, nā bujhiye vidhira vidhāna
- sukha lāgi’ kailuṅ prīta, haila duḥkha viparīta,
- ebe yāya, nā rahe parāṇa
SYNONYMS
sakhi he—(My dear) friend; nā bujhiye—I do not understand; vidhira—of the creator; vidhāna—the regulation; sukha lāgi’—for happiness; kailuṅ—I did; prīta—love; haila—it became; duḥkha—unhappiness; viparīta—the opposite; ebe—now; yāya—going; nā—does not; rahe—remain; parāṇa—life.
TRANSLATION
[Śrīmatī Rādhārāṇī continued lamenting about the consequences of loving Kṛṣṇa:] “My dear friend, I do not understand the regulative principles given by the creator. I loved Kṛṣṇa for happiness, but the result was just the opposite. I am now in an ocean of distress. It must be that now I am going to die, for My vital force no longer remains. This is My state of mind.